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Thursday, August 18, 2005
Random thoughts
Been having lots of random thoughts lately... definitely is the quarter life crisis i tell you... i'm more than a quarter of a century old now! and sadly none the wiser... a really close friend said recently that i was flighty... she couldn't exactly qualify if this was a good or a bad thing... it's just a state of being... i'm flighty... so i went online to check the exact meaning of flighty... with all credit to dictionary.com:
**flight·y ( P ) Pronunciation Key (flt)
adj. flight·i·er, flight·i·est
1) Given to capricious or unstable behavior.
2) Characterized by irresponsible or silly behavior.
3) Easily excited; skittish.
flighti·ly adv.
flighti·ness n.
**flighty
adj 1: irresponsibly frivolous; "flighty young girls" [syn: flyaway] 2: absent-mindedly irresponsible; "he said I was too flighty to be a good supervisor" [syn: head-in-the-clouds, scatterbrained]
oh gosh! gasps! i really AM flighty! yikes! *lets out a shout of horror in disbelief*...
head in the clouds and scatterbrained... no wonder i luuurrrvvee cloud shapes and can see them so well... (refer to earlier posts/friendster.com)
was quite disturbed so i went on line to search for some flighty images... perhaps to represent my current (or worse! permanent!) state of being... :)
is it neccessarily a bad thing? hmnn... i don't wanna be seen/known as unstable... i guess this draws me back to my desire to be steadfast in the Lord... to be faithful and consistent and unwavering...
And of course, as is typical of a flighty person, i have been distracted and i have forgotten what i had originally logged on to blog about... RANDOM THOUGHTS :)
Random thought number 1: My family's an odd mix of odd balls
had family dinner with the family this week... and it was sooo odd... in many ways i love this family to death... but sometimes, seeing each individual makes me wanna laugh out loud... a little bit like adam's family... there's daddy cheong, who's a very reserved man... but comes absolutely alive to new baby cheong... often going goo goo ga ga... next, there's mummy cheong, who tends to be very strict with her words but soft in the heart... a bit like a jelly bean... an orange one (don't ask me why) crispy on the outside and jello on the inside... then there's kor kor cheong... who's got a super load of self confidence.. then there's sao sao cheong... who's quiet and reserved... and then baby cheong... who's the cutest addition to the family who's clever enough to act cute most times to get what he wants... very different individuals... so how did we end up as a family? Who orchestrated this? what would it be like to be born into someone else's family? if we don't get to choose which family, then what is it that we are to learn from this? Things get really tough sometimes... most times... but i love being a part of this odd ball... and most imptly i believe the Lord's placed me here for a reason... must start praying for family again...
Random thought number 2: I have so many things i wanna do
a) dance salsa competitively
b) french
c) tennis
d) run a half marathon
e) travel the world
f) buy a branded leather bag
g) go sky-diving
h) go trekking in Nepal
i) visit vietnam
j) walk the camino
k) play the cello
l) play the violin
m) be two parts in a string quartet (haha! ridunkulous!)
n) sew myself a beautiful dress
o) be a photographer
p) play in a basketball league
q) write my own music
r) be a poet
s) get an accountancy degree (just to prove that i can :)
t) be a princess of a small county in England
u) teach physical education
v) be a businesswoman (selling anything... flowers maybe)
w) plant a chiku tree (and maybe mango and mangosteen and some vine-riped tomatoes)
x) serve in the missions field in cambodia
y) know what the left wing, right wing, conservatives, reformists, communists, democrats etc etc mean in the political arena
z) complete a triathlon
and you know what? i could prob go through the alphabet another 10 times over... that makes 11X26=? (i don't wanna be a mathematician) things that i want to do...
Random thought number 3: I want to run away from the imperatives in life
As Milan Kundera puts it in "The unbearable lightness of being" (must read!), to run away from the "Es Muss Sien!" in life... the "It Must Be!"s. It seems that there are many must do, must obey, must follow, must complete, must excel things in my life... i just wanna not have all the musts... i'd like to wake up when i want to, eat when i want to, sleep when i'm tired, work when i'm inspired... but you'd think without the imperatives and perimeters in life, people would go berserk coz there aren't any guidelines or boxes to trap yourself in... i think the best perimeters to abide by are found in the Lord's word. They are perfect and not man-made (synthetic) and reaps definite rewards... :)
I'm so tired... i'm going to stop blogging now... *yawns* till next... i'll make my random thoughts into random dreams...
**flight·y ( P ) Pronunciation Key (flt)
adj. flight·i·er, flight·i·est
1) Given to capricious or unstable behavior.
2) Characterized by irresponsible or silly behavior.
3) Easily excited; skittish.
flighti·ly adv.
flighti·ness n.
**flighty
adj 1: irresponsibly frivolous; "flighty young girls" [syn: flyaway] 2: absent-mindedly irresponsible; "he said I was too flighty to be a good supervisor" [syn: head-in-the-clouds, scatterbrained]
oh gosh! gasps! i really AM flighty! yikes! *lets out a shout of horror in disbelief*...
head in the clouds and scatterbrained... no wonder i luuurrrvvee cloud shapes and can see them so well... (refer to earlier posts/friendster.com)
was quite disturbed so i went on line to search for some flighty images... perhaps to represent my current (or worse! permanent!) state of being... :)
is it neccessarily a bad thing? hmnn... i don't wanna be seen/known as unstable... i guess this draws me back to my desire to be steadfast in the Lord... to be faithful and consistent and unwavering...
And of course, as is typical of a flighty person, i have been distracted and i have forgotten what i had originally logged on to blog about... RANDOM THOUGHTS :)
Random thought number 1: My family's an odd mix of odd balls
had family dinner with the family this week... and it was sooo odd... in many ways i love this family to death... but sometimes, seeing each individual makes me wanna laugh out loud... a little bit like adam's family... there's daddy cheong, who's a very reserved man... but comes absolutely alive to new baby cheong... often going goo goo ga ga... next, there's mummy cheong, who tends to be very strict with her words but soft in the heart... a bit like a jelly bean... an orange one (don't ask me why) crispy on the outside and jello on the inside... then there's kor kor cheong... who's got a super load of self confidence.. then there's sao sao cheong... who's quiet and reserved... and then baby cheong... who's the cutest addition to the family who's clever enough to act cute most times to get what he wants... very different individuals... so how did we end up as a family? Who orchestrated this? what would it be like to be born into someone else's family? if we don't get to choose which family, then what is it that we are to learn from this? Things get really tough sometimes... most times... but i love being a part of this odd ball... and most imptly i believe the Lord's placed me here for a reason... must start praying for family again...
Random thought number 2: I have so many things i wanna do
a) dance salsa competitively
b) french
c) tennis
d) run a half marathon
e) travel the world
f) buy a branded leather bag
g) go sky-diving
h) go trekking in Nepal
i) visit vietnam
j) walk the camino
k) play the cello
l) play the violin
m) be two parts in a string quartet (haha! ridunkulous!)
n) sew myself a beautiful dress
o) be a photographer
p) play in a basketball league
q) write my own music
r) be a poet
s) get an accountancy degree (just to prove that i can :)
t) be a princess of a small county in England
u) teach physical education
v) be a businesswoman (selling anything... flowers maybe)
w) plant a chiku tree (and maybe mango and mangosteen and some vine-riped tomatoes)
x) serve in the missions field in cambodia
y) know what the left wing, right wing, conservatives, reformists, communists, democrats etc etc mean in the political arena
z) complete a triathlon
and you know what? i could prob go through the alphabet another 10 times over... that makes 11X26=? (i don't wanna be a mathematician) things that i want to do...
Random thought number 3: I want to run away from the imperatives in life
As Milan Kundera puts it in "The unbearable lightness of being" (must read!), to run away from the "Es Muss Sien!" in life... the "It Must Be!"s. It seems that there are many must do, must obey, must follow, must complete, must excel things in my life... i just wanna not have all the musts... i'd like to wake up when i want to, eat when i want to, sleep when i'm tired, work when i'm inspired... but you'd think without the imperatives and perimeters in life, people would go berserk coz there aren't any guidelines or boxes to trap yourself in... i think the best perimeters to abide by are found in the Lord's word. They are perfect and not man-made (synthetic) and reaps definite rewards... :)
I'm so tired... i'm going to stop blogging now... *yawns* till next... i'll make my random thoughts into random dreams...
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